Letting Go

I am the first one to admit that I have an extremely difficult time "letting go." This is true in all areas of my life. I hold on to memories, friends, some sentimental items, etc... I have only enjoyed "change" in the last few years. I am not a packrat but up to 3 weeks ago, I had kept all of Shea's baby stuff! Let me explain before you call me a big, lying packrat! While I was pregnant with Shea and for the first 5 years of her life, I would get the most incredible gifts from patients. I am talking beautiful and expensive outfits that after she outgrew them, I would pack away always thinking that "when" I had another little girl that I would never have to buy another thing! Most of her things were like brand new when I would put them away. Well, here we are almost 13 years later, 4 months after having my surgery, and I finally let go and got rid of most of her stuff! I started out with about 10 of those big, plastic tubs and I got it down to about 2. So many sweet memories and I did fairly well, didn't even cry at all as I unpacked the first box of newborn clothes! Thank God that I was able to give most of her really good items to some friends who just had little girls. I just could not bear to sell these things at a garage sale, it would have broken my heart. There is something healing about letting go, not only of the past, but letting go and enjoying the here and now. I always feel that so many people get stuck in the past or are so focused on the future that they miss the present. I don't want to be that person...I want to embrace today with the tightest of grips that I can possibly muster up!

Psalm 118:24

"This is the day that the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it."